The why you couldn't

The many names on all at once;
The typing when not to me;
The why you couldn't let me see;
or Hear
The reason you didn't know what we were talking about,

when it was right in front above you;
The times you disappeared, but were really still there;
The many men you had to call friends;
Some things I'll never know, will I?
It wasn't always that way was it?
I became taken for granted, like the Northern Star,

always there to guide, if you needed...
It is the curse of Man (humans), that some of them forget!
But it is my curse to remember.
The many names you are, the ones that never were for me,

but were there for a reason. All often at the
same time, as many as you could keep account of,

but still you could not keep up with all of them.
It hurts to see you have been hurt. And yet you believed,

as you were deceived, even after you realized
you were deceived, you believed again,

because you wanted to hypothesize, the ones you love would
not mislead you. But some people are like animals,

they'll rip your heart out, eat the sweetest part out,
drink your blood, suck the marrow from your bones,

and smile, like a friend as they leave you with a
stupid look on your stupid face,

and think of you as an emotional fool,

a half eaten piece of fruit, that all
the sweetness has been sucked out of,

you are now worthless to them and they move on to another
prey, gain it's trust, rip IT's heart out,

consume what they want and leave it in dismay, with a stupid
look on IT's face,,,Laughing out Loud,,you stupid fool!

"I was found dead at around 3 am
strangled by him that controls insane
wiriness' saw nothing but great pain"

With only this note;

I cannot stand this rain
in my eyes
and in my heart
that drains
into my empty soul